I don’t like to complain, honestly, and this might be one of those posts that seems like a good idea at what is now 5:15 in the morning, but will probably be closer to 6 A.M when this post is finished.
What I have learned, it is all down hill after you graduate from college. Your life, your fun, your sense of purpose, guidance and all of your friends are gone.
My best friends are too caught up in their relationships to even pay attention or have the time to hang out. In school, they had the time and you would see them but now they have pretty much eliminated you from their lives. After a month and a half you are lucky if you even get replies to your text messages. I’ve been sitting here, and no one texts me anymore, they don’t even bother to reply to my Facebook messages, or tweets. They’ve erased me.
I learned that I spent four years in high school working hard in many different student organizations, kept my grades up, worked several jobs, and all for going to a good college. I spent four years in college, the one I just spent four years working hard to get into, basically doing the same thing as high school, but with more school work and busting my butt to work and get myself into the music business my freshman year. I did this by finding artists and anything else I could to get into promotion. Four years later, and five internships, when it was all going right it is now all falling flat.
So, no friends, nothing from what I worked hard at in school. I’ve been trying so hard to get into where I want and it never works out.
I just don’t see the point anymore in anything really.