WRITE YOUR LIFE AWAY

22. college graduate. i promote bands.

Post Grad. Sucks.

I don’t like to complain, honestly, and this might be one of those posts that seems like a good idea at what is now 5:15 in the morning, but will probably be closer to 6 A.M when this post is finished. 

What I have learned, it is all down hill after you graduate from college. Your life, your fun, your sense of purpose, guidance and all of your friends are gone. 

My best friends are too caught up in their relationships to even pay attention or have the time to hang out. In school, they had the time and you would see them but now they have pretty much eliminated you from their lives. After a month and a half you are lucky if you even get replies to your text messages. I’ve been sitting here, and no one texts me anymore, they don’t even bother to reply to my Facebook messages, or tweets. They’ve erased me. 

I learned that I spent four years in high school working hard in many different student organizations, kept my grades up, worked several jobs, and all for going to a good college. I spent four years in college, the one I just spent four years working hard to get into, basically doing the same thing as high school, but with more school work and busting my butt to work and get myself into the music business my freshman year. I did this by finding artists and anything else I could to get into promotion. Four years later, and five internships, when it was all going right it is now all falling flat. 

So, no friends, nothing from what I worked hard at in school. I’ve been trying so hard to get into where I want and it never works out. 

I just don’t see the point anymore in anything really.

Yes, we flooded the hot tub.

Yes, we flooded the hot tub.

Yeah, I splurged a little. #Ferrari

Yeah, I splurged a little. #Ferrari

Just a spoon please and thank you. #nutellamylove

Just a spoon please and thank you. #nutellamylove

The cover for my book The Show Goes On. At Winston Carlyle University there is nothing that is more coveted than a good secret. However with the new renovations of the small college town, new school president and mounting conflict with politics of the Magnolia Heights against the school’s students leaves everyone in question when Ashley Hill disappears into the night sky. The tragedy leads to suspects but the plot thickens when fingers are pointed and the mystery surrounding her disappearance is not answered. 

She isn’t the only one missing, as more deaths occur due to drugs students take to keep their high grades.

While Nate Klein captain of the soccer team struggles with the loss of his girlfriend, there is a new face interrupting the status quo of WCU. Alex Preston. An aspiring musician with big dreams who finds himself clouded to achieve them through his lack of confidence. His addiction to fit in while standing out and pressure to join two school group to keep his scholarship leads him to an unsavory group of friends who hold nothing but false hopes and know exactly how to play people to get what they want.

Through the pain, the hardships and the struggles, these characters learn that their show must go on.

The cover for my book The Show Goes On. At Winston Carlyle University there is nothing that is more coveted than a good secret. However with the new renovations of the small college town, new school president and mounting conflict with politics of the Magnolia Heights against the school’s students leaves everyone in question when Ashley Hill disappears into the night sky. The tragedy leads to suspects but the plot thickens when fingers are pointed and the mystery surrounding her disappearance is not answered.

She isn’t the only one missing, as more deaths occur due to drugs students take to keep their high grades.

While Nate Klein captain of the soccer team struggles with the loss of his girlfriend, there is a new face interrupting the status quo of WCU. Alex Preston. An aspiring musician with big dreams who finds himself clouded to achieve them through his lack of confidence. His addiction to fit in while standing out and pressure to join two school group to keep his scholarship leads him to an unsavory group of friends who hold nothing but false hopes and know exactly how to play people to get what they want.

Through the pain, the hardships and the struggles, these characters learn that their show must go on.

What’s next? You should totally do that now.

Welcome to the post college graduate world. It’s a mystical place that is anything but decided. It’s probably one reason why graduation parties for college are avoided. When you graduated high school, you knew what you were doing next, you were going to college. When you graduate college, you simply hope that last semester of senior year that an interview went the right way and that you won’t wince, shake your coffee cup, or repeatedly lock and unlock your iPhone with the question of “What’s next?” 

So here you, sitting here, eagerly awaiting the answer to the question that was just asked. You hope that this is some sort of test and that they hold some magical book in their hands with something as black and white as what you are actually doing next. Chances are you’ll come up with something, even something that is not true and scoot away before explaining further because you are just so busy with making it home to watch Montel Williams and your now other favorite daytime talk shows. Judge Judy anyone?

When you finally have an answer, or if you do in fact know that you are moving and you explain your plans, the next response will be, “Oh that’s great, if you are going to do it, do it now.” They’ll say it with such confidence and a determined look in their eyes like they came up with that phrase or some new philosophy on life that very second. You’ll probably want to respond, “Of course I’m going to do it now. I was not giving you a timeline for the year 2050.” So, smile, shake your head, and acknowledge their new profound state of wiseness. 

Of course, the Do it now comment just says to you, “after 24 you need to get married and settle down with two kids, a dog, position on the PTA, and a house with a white picket fence. That your ambitions of seeing the country or going on tour with some rock band all need to come to an end.” If you are anything like me and a big dreamer, then I’ll send over some of my insight. You don’t need to give anything up. Stop focusing on what society expects, and focus on what you want. You have one life so don’t let the world dictate it.

@joanjett rocking hard. Freaking awesome.

@joanjett rocking hard. Freaking awesome.

Thanks to these two for supporting me through thick and thin these last 16 years of school.

Thanks to these two for supporting me through thick and thin these last 16 years of school.

Another one for the books. With hope, katelyn, and Greg.

Another one for the books. With hope, katelyn, and Greg.

Hanging with @fleigwhites before senior dinner cruise :)

Hanging with @fleigwhites before senior dinner cruise :)